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aansoekseisoen

Dis aansoekseisoen. Ek het pas vir die Mandela-Rhodesbeurs en die Leef-en-Leerprogram aansoek gedoen en dit het my gedwing om bietjie te soul search.

Dis maar vrek moeilik om te besluit wat om te se en wat om uit te los. Op die ou end kan ek maar net hoop dat ek myself weergee en dat hulle ‘n ingeligte besluit vir of teen my maak. As ‘n aansoek akkurate weerspieeling van myself is, en my nie ‘n plek in die Beurs of die huise kry nie, moet ek my daarby berus. Maar wat as ek net ‘n slegte opstel skryf? Wat as ek nie dit beklemtoon waarvoor hulle kyk nie, al is dit deel van my?

Hier is die essay wat ek vir Leef en Leer geskryf het.

Almal ken die storie van die man wat op die strand geloop het en sover hy loop, uitgespoelde seesterretjies teruggegooi het in die water in. Toe iemand hom daarop let dat hy tog nooit al die duisende seesterre kan red nie, het hy geantwoord: “Maar vir hierdie een het ek ‘n verskil gemaak.”

Ek stem saam dat ‘n mens soms vir ‘n individu iets onsaglik waardevol kan doen, en dat dit dalk op sigself die moeite werd is. Maar ek wil graag die metafoor van die seesterretjies ‘n bietjie aanpas. Ek hoop ons kan aanhou worstel met hoe om die branders te keer – die branders van armoede, verdrukking en geweld, wat duisende mense soos seesterre uitspoel. Ons verken in die regering, in gemeenskapsprojekte, in ons studies, die sandpaadjies na daardie oplossings. Maar sover soos ons stap, gooi ons individuele seesterre terug. Ek glo dus die wêreld moet beide op sisteemvlak en op interpersoonlike vlak verander… en ek hoop ek kan ‘n bietjie van albei doen.

Ek is ‘n politieke wetenskapstudent met ‘n passie vir Suid-Afrika en Afrika. Ek glo nie eintlik in vyfjaarplanne nie – die lewe verander te vinnig en te veel en ek hou daarvan so. Net op een ding kan ek reken: ek as mens sal aanhou groei en daarom sal ek or 5 jaar meer ingelig en betrokke in die problematiek van my land sal wees as ooit. Of ek binne of buite die land sal wees waarvoor ek so lief is, weet ek nog nie! Ek hoop eintlik ek sal ten minste ‘n bietjie internasionale ervaring opgedoen hê teen daardie tyd. Dalk is ek oor vyf jaar besig om my Frankofone Afrika-droom te verwesenlik.

Ek weet wel waar ek myself volgende jaar sien. As die studentekorps vir my stem, wil ek graag die SR-lid vir Gemeenskapsinteraksie wees, soos julle dalk kan aflei van my CV. En verder wil besig wees om my Meestersgraad in Politieke Wetenskap te verwerf met ‘n tema wat kan bydra tot die verbetering van mense se lewenskwaliteit of –kanse.

Ek glo die beste soort groei is die “yster slyp yster” soort. Dit is deur die mense met wie ek in verhoudings staan wat ek die heel meeste leer, mits ek bereid is om myself voortdurend te laat uitdaag. Dis nie altyd gemaklik nie, maar ek het by my ma geleer dat dit tot almal se nadeel is as ek aanstoot neem (en dat mense in elk geval gewoonlik foutiewelik glo dat iemand hulle aspris probeer uitlok).

Dit is die unieke geleentheid wat die Leef en Leerhuise bied om my verder in verhouding met verskillende mense te laat groei, wat my so daartoe aantrek. Party mense daag my regtig, eerlik, meer uit as wat vir my gemaklik is, en ek het ‘n rukkie gewik en geweeg voordat ek hierdie aansoek ingee. Maar ek glo tog dat dit is waar ek moet wees.

Anders kyk ons dalk net die sandpaadjie na ‘n oplossing of twee mis.

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the present

Cara Meintjes, soos Zapiro, hou partykeer blogvakansie en dan post sy ‘n rerun!

The Present

Silence is not when the sounds of people reside, but when the land around the people is quiet – when trees do not rustle, wind does not blow and no birds sing.

There were no trees here, nor any birds. The wind, though not affected by all that had happened, was also quiet today.

The silence that descended upon the small caravan of military tents gave rise to a collective self-consciousness. Some were talking, chiefly about short-term things like food and the following day’s traveling plans. But their voices did not give the slighest echo as there were no mountains – the emptiness of the plains gulped their words as if they were water, quenching the parched earth.

Some children were playing in the hard sand. Were they battling the eeriness of the morning, or did they not sense it, as did Johnathan?

They sang a song that Johnathan had taught them: “Hey Jude, don’t make it bad, take a sad song and make it better…”

The girls drew a few blocks in the sand. As they sang they jumped from square to square, sometimes with both feet in a square, sometimes balancing only on one leg. They lifted the ragged dresses to their knees as their friends demanded in order to make sure that they did not cheat.

Johnathan watched them from a distance and sipped the soup Miranda and the other women had made for the group. Apparently Miranda had dug up some edible roots. She boiled them in some seawater that they carried in their flasks and then added some precious fresh water. The sea minerals provided some extra supplement as a varying diet was not always possible.

Johnathan remembered when he could say “Pass the salt, please.” Laura at the dinner table. Oh, God… Back then, he thought planning a summer holiday was difficult. Laura had been looking forward to summer. But it became the summer during which the whole world was changed and during which she died.

How could they have been so stupid? he wondered for the millionth time. He had followed this path of thought so many times that he could anticipate the emotions that came with each idea, but he followed the path nonetheless. Amid the children’s 1960’s song, the thoughts – concise but laden with a wandering sense of loss – mingled with fresh nostalgia.

They had been able to ignore the facts because it had not touched their lives until it was too late, he reasoned. The problems – cold wars that were gaining momentum daily, the economic upheavals, the religious battles… nothing had a very direct influence on the US. The price of petrol rose at most, when workers went on strike yet again.

He remembered the suddenness with which the Third World War started. One day he was a citizen who prided himself on his nationality and the principles that his country upheld throughout the world. The following, he was a fugitive, taking the fastest road out of Washington, DC. And not a moment too soon. The bomb blast could be seen in his rearview mirror, or so Laura had told him. She had found the strength to look.

The children had tired of their song now. They gathered around Johnathan, hoping for another story of the olden days. “Don’t you have a different song for us?” One girl asked, one almost old enough to start helping to prepare food and make clothes.

“But I’ve already taught you so many!” he protested laughingly. “If you’re not careful, I’ll exhaust my supply!”

They begged again and he gave in. “All right! All right. But what kind of a song?”

Some of the ladies were looking at him, interested. “What could I teach them?” he asked Miranda. The sun had rendered her hair light and her face dark. “How about a nursery rhyme?” she suggested. “But which one?”

She thought for a moment and then grinned. “I bet they haven’t heard Little Miss Muffet!”

The children burst into chorus instantly, and she laughed at their proud faces. “I don’t know, Nathan. It seems we’ve taught them all the songs there were.”

She was attractive when she laughed; even more when she was thoughtful. She caught his eye and he tried to hold her gaze; tried to find some hint of how her loss might resemble his. She smiled a sheepish smile in an effort to relieve the sudden tension. Attractive.

The words sprang to his mind suddenly.

“Hey, diddle diddle…” he began, then stopped. Would she join in? Her face lit up and she smiled again, this time warmly. “The cat and the fiddle,” she answered.

A warm, dry wind came up and Johnathan forgot how silent it had been. He was singing with Miranda. “The cow jumped over the moon… the little dog laughed with all his heart and the dish ran away with the spoon.”

“What’s a fiddle?”

“Did dishes and spoons have legs back then? Could they run?”

“Wow! Did they put the cow in a spaceship?”

Johnathan and Miranda grinned. She came to sit next to him and together they explained – as the wind began to blow in earnest – that the past might resemble the present more than we imagine.